Living my summers out in a hotel Finally found a moment to set a spell Heard things at home were going astray Won’t you give me a moment I’ve been away
I heard my name but didn’t turn around Waited on the stairs for you to take the elevator down And down When I got to my room I found out
You’ve been a lover and you’ve been a friend There’ve been others I never met How many witnesses I couldn’t say lord Won’t you give me a moment I’ve been away
I’ve been out of my head
First sign of winter I want you to go Take nothing with you and never let it show Leave me alone now so I can pray Lord, Give me a moment I’ve been away (These are the lyrics to the song i am listening to right now, possibly one of my favorite songs, i took the lyrics off a random google result website and i do not believe that they are perfectly accurate but nonetheless they will serve their purpose as is.) Funny how I have so many thoughts and so little to say. Or so much to say and no idea how to say it. Whatever the case, it has been awhile. Lately I have been wondering exactly who I am. How can I define myself. Is there anything that makes me uniquely me. I have asked many people these same questions that I have asked myself (Of course rephrased to refer to them instead of me) and no one has given me a single satisfactory answer. From this I begin to wonder, are we all just rehashed content that seems to appear new at first glance? From there I move onto thoughts that deal with the basic nature of ideas themselves. Being as everything we do, say, and think is taught to us from the very day we are born, (ie: what colour is a cow, you in all likelihood will answer black and white, but the truth is that not many cows actually are black and white, take a look next time you go past a herd.), what is creativity but what we are taught to believe is creative? How much original content is there and where does it come from? From there you probably can tell that time spent alone and undistracted is bad for me. The problem is, I have spent most of a year in exactly that state and I have plans that will make it worse starting June fifth. I started to write this entry 4+ times, every time completely different from the previous attempts, over a period of about 5 months. I am still not completely satisfied with it and plan to follow it up with other entries to round out the edges and possibly edits to it until it feels right. |